Hi Ho, Hi Ho, ...
It occurred to me Monday is my last day of vacation/holiday. It seems to have passed quickly, though I'm ready for work. I know I'll have a little hurried catch up, things like my performance review which probably should have been done this week. I expect that will be my first couple hours Tuesday morning. Then any new and important campaigns for the marketing folks I do much of my work for.
Not really anything exciting for resolutions this year. First, keep focused on and growing in the conservatory program. I managed to do this pretty well last quarter, but with work and full time acting training the eighty hour weeks took a toll. Of course, I hadn't had a real break in quite a long time, unless you count the broken leg. While it was a significant break in one way (yuk, yuk, oh yuck!), it provided no time to unwind and refresh. Classes don't start until the 17th, so I'll be able to re-immerse back into the hectic schedule a step at a time. I feel more refreshed than I have in years, so I'm hoping next quarter isn't so challenging with regards to the schedule. Our homework is to read four Shakespeare plays (and I have the needed ones on paperback), watch the Branagh versions Henry V (which I have) and Hamlet (which I want), and to watch the first four episodes of John Barton's BBC series, "Playing Shakespeare." I'm looking forward to all of it.
My second resolution, is to continue getting the material clutter out of my life. Didn't get much done this year, and hope to do much more in '06. One thing that helps is a true desire to get it done. The hold habit of procrastinating is still there, even though I no longer dread the task but look forward to it. One of those dichotomies I so enjoy in concept, but struggle against in reality.
I had a great Christmas, though my brother and I clashed a little when I made a snide remark after letting his orations of the tired fantasy-based neocon talking points get my goat. Stupid. I should have graciously left the room to use the toilet and left him to his mostly bored audience. Oh well, live and learn. I once considered my brother to be an exceptionally brave and generous soul who thought for himself, and his politics are what I see as the basest anathema of those qualities. I honestly can't see his side unless I assume it is driven by consuming avarice, fear, and ignorance as a deliberate choice. I don't leave myself any middle ground. It is a struggle, because I suspect I should not find middle ground with those qualities. To do so is to give in to the corruption of ideals this country was founded on, and hasten it's ultimate demise.
While I was in Canada I made a longish post exploring kindness and violence. How compassion and courtesy may tend to be a more sincere and conscious choice when coming from those who have lived with violence. After a day or two I decided the post was too self involved and archived it, though I'm still interested in how other's think. As a Naval Aviator I was involved in a career with violence at it's very heart for ten years, including time in combat, so my view is slanted.
I hope you all have wonderful New Year's Eve and Day celebrations, whether they be wild flings that would disappoint your parents or staid periods for reflection. I hope for both.